| Lady Raven- Jessica Galbreth |
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| Belladonna - Jessica Galbreth |
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| silencing yesterday |
| Monday, October 31, 2005 |
i see so many aspects of the previous several years that
must be released... and this is just part of
it. please excuse me...i don't know if this is
coming out as poetry so much as it is a
rant...but i just need to get this feeling out...
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history...is so clearly defined...
through the look-back glasses of life...
i feel all insightful now...
here's the story you provoked:
breaking away...you are
blooming into new directions...
i am...watching time pass
by me slowly...lonely...waiting...
support full of unrest...
still waiting for promises
kept...i am giving
and secretly wishing for
the waiting...to end...
you steal me...
energetically...no doubt
i resent that
the promises weren't kept...
fuck.
you.
for taking advantage of love...
then walking into the sunset
in someone else's arms...
"i don't want to be with you anymore
but i still love you"
fuck.
you.
yeah, now i don't want to see you...
so deal with it...
yeah, i get mad at you for
trying to be friendly. you
used.
me.
for 3 whole years.
fuck. you.
the "good times" seem
distant...faded
into backgrounds of technicolored
creations of what i *think* might be
memories...bad ones...
where was your "happy"...
miss "things-will-be-better-soon" took
solitude in sweet contentment of
the committed, no-questions-asked
support system of me... took my energy...
fuck.
you.
hindsight is so clear
mixing of emoticons
says i'm
needing to find resolution to
this resentment...
waiting is over...you are gone...
no desire for you back but...
time, energy, effort...no questions asked...
"how else can i support you, dear"...
all of that is over...with
better day payoffs not had...
someone else reaping rewards of
my hardest days' work...
so yeah...i say
Fuck You.
i hope you realize someday
that you chose the worse choice...
and got rid of the only
good.
thing.
you will ever have...
and i hope
you.
cry.
meanwhile...
here i am...
i sit silently...reflecting...
healing...trying...
moving on to life
my yesterday
is now silenced... |
posted by the Raven @ 12:58 PM  |
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| update |
| Sunday, October 30, 2005 |
i know it's been a while...
trying to re-ground myself
after an upsurgence of events...
maybe i'll post some of my thoughts
and doodles...and scribbles...
in a couple days.
i'm not lost...
just planting my feet again.
Namaste' |
| posted by the Raven @ 9:50 PM |
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| crazy head, lunatic heart... |
| Sunday, October 02, 2005 |
chopped the hair right from my head
thinking this will be a moment of
transformation...
but my heart still races uncontrollably...
waiting for you to appear...
street corners are filled with
occupants of your twins
turning my head at every pass...
frustrating brain's echoes
shouting memories of your touch...
fuck...
this red...fire...heat-waved action
acting on impulse for
soft and delicate you...
where are my seven holy hues
of heaven's happiness... how
are my hands holding fire
between chilled palms...
what instigates loneliness
and why can't i find you
next to me at night...
my crazy head...chopped lettuce
wildly tamed curls...
creaping lunatic heart...
bipolar predictions of serenity...
surrender this soul
as offering to you...
my God...my life...my everything...
in the name of us... |
| posted by the Raven @ 11:30 AM |
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